Through the many years of trials, disappointments and misunderstandings, I’ve also experienced a number of accomplishments and “good times” which caused me to overlook everything I ever complained about. But this was all a cover up, masquerading the reality that I was dying inside. Constantly searching for answers, constantly trying to resolve my issues on my own, often times using and advice from friends. Atop these wonky roller coaster experiences, I was also undergoing some pretty enigmatic occurrences as well. Phenomenal things were happening. Which propelled me on this journey that I’ve been on since the year 2012. I graduated from college in 2012 with a bachelor’s degree. However, 2012 was not only a major academic milestone for me, but a spiritual one. It was the beginning of this questioning that I had, this desire to find truth outside of what I learned in school, and to find out who I really am. What woman in their early 20’s isn’t trying to find themselves, right? Meanwhile, I indulged in the “party” lifestyle thinking I can find fulfillment in that. However, there was always this level of moral consciousness prohibiting me from doing certain things. I would feel really remorseful every time I did something that didn’t seem right and I didn’t understand why until now. I eventually couldn’t understand why these activities were fun anymore and I felt like maybe something was wrong with me. I noticed that I became bored very fast with almost anything that I started which is not always a good characteristic. I hated living at home, I couldn’t find a job, I was wrestling with un-forgiveness and I was becoming really depressed. Suddenly my life changed with the accepting of a job offer and a prophesy which i’ll discuss more in detail in another post. Flash forward, about 4 years from then, I am a renewed person, flawed and all. I’ve been saved by Jesus Christ and he has been my strength since then. Yes I still make mistakes and my life is not perfect but I can’t even begin to describe how much better my life has been since then and how enthusiastic I am to share this journey with you all. He has brought me out of rough  times (and continues to) and has shed His grace and mercy on all of my sins. So I hope that if there’s one message you can take from this blog, is that I am just as human as the rest of you; I am not even close to being perfect and yet God’s Grace has covered me and transformed me and He will do the same for everyone who accepts Him. God bless you.

2 Chronicles 7:14, “If my people which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and will heal their land”


Author: Vanessa Mack

A Christian millennial, fascinated with grace, passionate about learning, tech, finance, expressive writing and encouraging others.

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